::Christmas (final)::

haha..so the countdown is finally over~~And Christmas is here...then Christmas is over already...LOL...actually it's just two days where the sun rises up like usual..But this year's Christmas is extra special...Cuz it's the first one i celebrate with Father himself....

lotsa things happened over the course of these few days...i'm blogging at the cyber now...my computer broke down just now...[sob sob]

First of all, i wanna say Merry Christmas to all my loved ones...and to my dear friens Ah Ling...thank you so much for your love letter, i am very blessed by it...and i managed to get a pair of nice shoe also...so, here's the pic--


Actually not just for Christmas...during the whole period while i'm having my holiday at Sabah, God has blessed me so so so much and reveal to me a lot of things...

My friend receive Christ today...I am so honoured that i'm here to pray for him this morning...Very touched that God chooses to touch him personally...Just as how He did for so many people at the Christmas service today....

then i'm informed there's lotsa "babies" in my caregroup also back in singapore...Thank God for touching them...can't wait to see them....

::Christmas (III)::

Oh well...6 more days to Christmas!!! Today i went to church service, and the bishop talk about How we shall all run this race and persevere till the end...It's on 2 Timothy4:1-8..He reminded all that Jesus will come as the Highest Judge for the Living and the Death...

How constantly do i forget all that? And keep on whining for my circumstances just like what the Israelites did when they were in the desert...Saying stupid things like..."how come no meat? I don't like this manna".."how come i am this..."..."how come i am that...."

Looking from an outsider point of view, i can say very easily that the Israelites are being ungrateful or even stupid and stuff...But looking at myself, how easily i fall into that as well.....I need more than blind faith, i need wisdom and discernment.

And now for the more light-hearted stuff....i made these two videos last night cause i am too bored...hope u all enjoy it and have a good laugh out of it...LOL..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jl7r8J0ydRw
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXhOY_Yo_oc

::Christmas (II)::

Well...it's still not Christmas yet...But anyway, here's my second post...I originally wanna talk about how awful i felt last night...but u kw, i realize how selfish it is...Guess it's just one of those things most people [all perhaps] tend to do, we tend to highlight our own problems n emotion , and though it's unavoidable as emotion will follow where ever we go, but i will tend to make an issue out of it...

So silly of me to be trapped in that cage when there's a better way of handling it, and i wanna thank my friend for helping me to see it [thank you so much! or else i will still be thinking bout it today for sure]

U know what's the more important thing? The kingdom has 7 more brothers n sisters...7...That's 7 souls saved, 7 life changed, 7 new stories to be told, 7 new smiles in the group...How awesome is that!!!

Today is my 4th month spiritual birthday, hahaha, i know some of you think i am going too over already with all these birthday stuff, but u see, even couples celebrate every month, so i think for someone as important as my Dad, it's ok to celebrate it even everyday.....

Looking back 4 month ago, I am very grateful I am one of those lost souls being saved also, the one the others told each other: Hey, we got a new sister! And how blessed I am that God hasn't given up on me that time....

I have my fair share of laughter and tears over the years,but now, in my tears, Dad is there to hug me, and tell me over and over again: It's ok, my child....

And it has been so so long since i am angry or feeling the emotion of hatred toward someone. Yes i still do complain bout this and that, still being skeptical about lots of stuff...but somehow, i just can't be angry anymore...but the bad thing is, i still am too controlled by emotions, especially sadness....

Oh yeah, almost forgot this is supposed to be an entry bout Christmas =p..haha...
sorry......

::Christmas (I)::

OK, so it's not yet Christmas...But i already am celebrating it..haha...This week i've gone caroling with some people...and i really love it!For me, despite all the tiredness, seeing that warm smile at people faces make going around all night worth it..

And i really Thank God for blessing me with the chances to meet up with friends that i haven't seen for a long time...And also for my granduncle...[he's on dying bed just last week..n now he's at home already...]

I went to this Christmas celebration at Gaya Street last night...it's awesome...and i even get to meet with my old primary school friends whom i have already lost contact...The performances are great and it touches me a lot..

Here's a video of it---




And i'm also planning to spend a "budget Christmas" this year...all the presents giving are too commercialized nowadays...But still...still wish that i can do something for all my beloved during this season...haha..so far so good, i just hope my friends will appreciate the "very very small gifts"...cuz it's really really quite ...erm...too small...But i enjoyed the process of making them....really put in a lot of effort in them....the process of making them is very enjoyable...

Sometimes, i get this small sad feeling, just like the drama i watched just now, the girl do so so many things for the guy, but in the end no one realize...And it make me wonder, what if no one like the effort i put in?

But u know, i realize that it's impossible not to felt blessed when i see the smiles in people faces...Even just for that split second, it's all worth it already...And i went to sleep with a small smile on my own face last night...hehe...i told God how happy i am that He gives me this opportunity to bring sunshine into others life...

::Amazed::

have u ever had the experience of a song stuck in your head for a few days?? haha..that's what i've been having these few days..and the song that have the honor to be stuck in my head is "Amazed" by Lincoln Brewster..haha...even sing this song to sleep these few nights =p

You dance over me while I am unaware
You sing all around but I never hear the sound

(chorus)
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
Lord I'm amazed by You
And how You love me

You paint the morning sky with miracles in mind
My hope will always stand
For You hold me in Your hand
How deep how wide
How great is Your love for me
[http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iV2nCP2mz14]

There's this best friend of mine that I have been trying to share God's Love with ever since i received Christ myself. I bought a Christmas present for her, hoping that she can see more of God's love through it...and that very same day when i tried to pass the book to her but dunno whether it's the right timing or not..God helps me....

That day i m SO SO SO amazed by God!

OK, so here's the story--
My friend wanted a book badly and the bookstore said they're out of stock, but she's a stubborn one and dragging me shops after shops to find that book...but they all said they're out of stock [that book sure is popular!] After a few days, she said she wanna go back to the very first store we tried, i told her it's impossible that they would have it cuz bookstore usually took a few weeks to stock in..she insisted that we go...so i just kinda follow the flow...

And now the amazing thing happened!! She asked me to pray for her so that she can buy the book..i hesitated at first, but i remember how God ask us to lay ALL our heart to Him...So i pray silently , even though the intellectual part of my brain say it's impossible, but with God, everything is possible..and i just prayed that through small prayers like this, she could see the amazing wonder of God...

And when we went to the bookstore..they have the book!! and a lot of it!!! Even though it's just something very small and insignificant, i really wanna praise God for it!!!! Thank God for he's faithfulness!! And she recognized that the prayer was answered and thank me for it...Thank God!!

Also, lately i've been reading the book of Genesis, and the universe just intrigued me so much..last night i accidentally come across a show that have all my question in it and even answered some of them, it's a show on Discovery Channel on Stephen Hawking and his theory of Everything..

There's so many physics out there trying to come out with wonderful theories of how the world came to be, and all of them acknowledge that although Science is very advance nowadays, yet, no concrete evidence had been discovered to support all their fancy theories, another discovery just lead to another more complex question and so on....

I am just amazed by how genius God is..haha...i know genius don't sound fitting...but i really just so amazed by Him!! how Genius He is!! Einstein, Hawking..they maybe the most brilliant minds on earth..but NEVER....NEVER will they surpass God!!

Grand Universe by *ANTIFAN-REAL@deviantart.com

The third amazement this week is i finally know what's up with all the "burning bushes" n prompting of the Spirit that i mentioned last time....[my small brain nearly explode on this journey of discovery..LOL..]

It's just impressed upon my heart that, What is Faith without Love and Deeds??And i think i really need to grow in these two lots more...and trust me,it is really easier said than done...being someone that has a big issue with Pride also, i really am humbled by God..By how he amazingly Love n Forgives all...ALL!! and still gives us this amazingly beautiful planet to live in~~

TG - Beauty of the Universe by `tigaer@deviantart.com

[In conclusion]

God is So Amazing!!

::Stirred::

This few days i am stirred by the Holy Spirit. Really thank God for choosing to open my eyes to understands how He works through people life so amazingly...I come to the conclusion that God is VERY hardworking..And i think i'll spend my whole life trying to understand the fullness of God yet i can never fully comprehend how God works..cause it's just beyond human capacity to understands it...

The few days i have spent at Sabah really is pure amazement...Somehow God chooses to reveal so much to me..Eva is just fill with JOY by the Holy Spirit presence and guidance...since this is the first time i come back to my hometown, made new and alive and being a new creation ^^

I feel like God is really trying to say something to me..and i'm still trying to make sense of it all..the thing is, there's "burning bushes" everyday ever since i come back to KK...Today for example, comes another shock [there are already a lot of shock i received ever since coming back] as my ex suddenly chat to me in MSN...he NEVER do that!!!!!

He is a very interesting person, the kind of goofy n joker type, he never fail to fill a room with laughter..I still remember the shy look he had when i accidentally saw his card to pledge to remain virgin n pure for marriage...And also fill with dreams n hope of having a simple n warm family..

Now looking at him, i wonder if that guy is still inside him somewhere...Somehow, he become a drunker, always on the fast-lane of life...I wonder if he still goes to church after going to uni...I mean, he's still the loving and fun guy...but...something have changed...and somehow i felt like it's not for the better.... hmmm...

Then i found out another ex of mine have gone to another place to study...then the time frame he left is exactly when we broke up...it rose something in me, a weird feeling...another "burning bush"...hmmm...

There's this book i 'm reading lately...somehow...all these "burning bushes" seems to be pointing to one direction...i feel the Spirit stirring inside of me...i just wish i have the wisdom to know what shall i do with all these much complicated emotion...

PS: Do keep me in prayer please...

::Miracles::

It's exam period, yet, i am so happy n joyful to have to study till late night every single day, cause this is a period where i see God works miracles in so many people's life around me, and in my life also..

Actually i almost can't sit for my exam cause i forgot to pay for my tuition fee, it was only last minute then i realize that i have to pay the tuition fee, i m really so lost, i told my mum, and she said it's very hard to come up with a lup sum of cash in such short notice...my heart filled with dread, there's only that much i can do with my mere human strength, thus , i prayed to God bout it, really really prayed with all my heart for days...Miraculously, God answer my prayer so faithfully!!! My mum called and told me the money is in my account already!!!!!

[i think God really want me to take this exam, that's why i constantly remind myself i m studying for Him ^^]

I really feel God so tangibly evey single day throughout this exam period, for every paper, i'll pray to God first before i start writing, and i just feel like God is taking the exam with me, so, even though some of the paper i didn't manage to do that good, yet i still thank God for being there with me and telling me everything's gonna be okay, cause everything under and beyond the sun is under His control.

I really see God's almighty hand working in the life of my brothers n sisters also, giving them peace and revealation, drawing them closer to Him than before..My soul rejoice when i see those surrounding me relying on God's strength for everything, i mean, more than some normally do when times are good and exam is not around...

Thank God for the testimonial of all of them..I see MIRACLES happening in their life, i m just so amazed by God's power, how He can so Unfailingly cover each and everyone of us with His Love...

According to Dictionary.com, Miracle is---

1.an effect or extraordinary event in the physical world that surpasses all known human or natural powers and is ascribed to a supernatural cause.
2.such an effect or event manifesting or considered as a work of God.
3.a wonder; marvel.
4.a wonderful or surpassing example of some quality: a miracle of modern acoustics.

Isn't it amazing how people recognize that work of Miracles can only come from God?
Yup yup, miracles will never come by mere human strength~~

So, What event can be considered as MIRACLE??

Actually, just living and breathing with god by my side is a huge miracle already..
Miracles have to be recognized in order for them to be a miracle.

A guy can be cured from cancer after his familiy prayed for him, and said that it doesn't come from God at all...

Another guy can be healed from a minor fever after his family prayed for him, and thank God with all his heart.

So...Open the eyes of our heart to God's everyday miracle..
N you will find this world an amazing place filled with God's wonder.

by ~OutlawJapan@deviantart.com

::Serve::

Actually for the past few weeks, i've been thinking bout how i can serve the Lord more with my limited knowledge and how to use my Spiritual gifts to their full extent~~

I personally think i have quite a cute and abstract gift.it's not here, it's not there..For example, gift of teaching, u just go teach..gift of healing, u just go heal..it seem so straight forward..Compared to mine, it's the gift of faith, don't get me wrong, i treasure this gift that God has entrusted me with...it's just that, last time, i'm a bit confused how i can use i to the full extent for the kingdom of Giod.

by ~thechikwiththepencil@deviantart.com

I also came with the realization that i have been using "spiritually young" as an excuse of preventing myself to serve more...and i start to really sat down to think bout this qustion...

But I really thank God for revealing to me how i can serve Him and His People more..And the answer that come is so easy that i laughed at myself, the answer has been right in front of my face the whole time--the most thing i can do is be a blessing to all those around me...Literally all.

And i consider myself so blessed that i can be of any small help for anyone.I mean, God gives me life, then he gives me the opportunity for eternal happiness, and now he chooses to bless me so more... Waoh! How awesome can God be??

God's Love compelled me to Love others

God's Mercy compelled me to forgive

God's Grace compelled me to serve

Thank God for all of these..

My soul n spirit rejoice in it~

"if God is for us, who can be against us?" Romans 8:31

"in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:37-39

::Bible::

The internet is penetrating billions of life every single day. And it is no wonder that as Christian we will be hammered by billions and billions of skeptical non-believers out there [even fellow believers occasionally]...

I hold no grudge against people who lives in darkness and are just simply blind to the Truth. What hurt my heart the most is to see these people quoting the bible and claiming that they already know all there is to know and strongly believe that God is just a fictional character.


As a Christian, i am advised by some loving brothers and sisters to cut myself from all these pollution and to stand firm in my faith. And i thank them for their love and concerns. i did tried doing that for a period of time.

My personal thought is that, instead of ignoring those anguish voice out there, i want to try to respond to them, it comfort my heart to see that there are fellow believers out there doing the same thing, i think that people don't want another lecture on how wrong and blinded they are, cause they live in their "believed truth", consumed by the wordly value, for they are of this world, not of the Light. So it is understandable for them to feel how they feel.

I strongly believe this--God has made a cross-shape hollow in everyone's heart, and we can only be complate if we live in His Love. As Children of Light, we are called to stand firm in one body. We rejoice because we have receive salvation, and we shine..etc..these we all know..YET, to actually LIVE it OUT is not just talking bout it n praying bout it then do NOTHING bout it..

How can I LOVE and SHINE for others if i only stayed in my own comfort zone and hope that by God's perfect planning i can be a blessing somehow??? We all have been taught all sorts of things we can do to serve Him and move His Kingdom forward. All these are not just theories, in order to live it out, we must first be courageous and actually GET UP and GO OUT~

The Lord has done so much, He planned, then come to you, show you His love, gave you all sorts of gifts and blessing, and sustain your everyday walk and trials....and the list goes on and on...When i think of these, i feel so ashamed of myself, He already done so much for me, yet i'm still struggling to be the person He wants me to be, and sometimes even placed my selfish desire above what the Holy Spirit wants me to do.

So, GO OUT, SHINE, SHARE, LIVE, SERVE~~Don't just talk bout WHAT we HOPE we want to do~

::Love::

[My first entry here..haha...must make it good =p]

Personally, i think LOVE is an overused topic already.People talks about it constantly, all the songs sing about it, korean drama, romance movie...We are living in a world literally drowned by this word--Love.

Yet, why is it still so difficult for so many people to actually LOVE?? I read somewhere that Human by default tend to love ourselves more than anything else in life.This is precisely the reason for why relationship melt down and marriage failed.

People come up with big theories to teaches others how to communicate, how to formulate a successful relationship, how to determine who's suitable for who....the list goes on and on...now, if all these things work, and if human's heart is as easy as math formula, then we should all be living in fairy tale land by now right?? and no heart would be broken any more right??

Yet, why are there still so many lost souls in this world?? Where does that lead us then??

Lincoln once said, the easiest way to handle his enemies is to figure out a way to them into friends.

So much wisdom in this simple statement. The easiest way to Love is simply to Love other as how you will Love yourself. Love not only the lovable, but love also your enemies, and soon you will see that there won't be any enemy left for you. And This is how True Love should come about. Isn't it funny when u say you are a loving mother when you are holding a grudge with the rest of the people around u??

Think of Adolf Hitler, how different would he be if only he is treated with love by those around him? How different will our world also if people are less selfish??

People find it easier to retreat to their own world inside their own small small mind where they can be safe. Thus filling themselves with hatred and anger. Yet, where does that lead a person to??? Only one word, Destruction. In everything, Love never fails.

Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good. The world can do better with one more loving soul rather than a sinful one. Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another.


When is the last time you love someone more than yourself?