::Stirred::

This few days i am stirred by the Holy Spirit. Really thank God for choosing to open my eyes to understands how He works through people life so amazingly...I come to the conclusion that God is VERY hardworking..And i think i'll spend my whole life trying to understand the fullness of God yet i can never fully comprehend how God works..cause it's just beyond human capacity to understands it...

The few days i have spent at Sabah really is pure amazement...Somehow God chooses to reveal so much to me..Eva is just fill with JOY by the Holy Spirit presence and guidance...since this is the first time i come back to my hometown, made new and alive and being a new creation ^^

I feel like God is really trying to say something to me..and i'm still trying to make sense of it all..the thing is, there's "burning bushes" everyday ever since i come back to KK...Today for example, comes another shock [there are already a lot of shock i received ever since coming back] as my ex suddenly chat to me in MSN...he NEVER do that!!!!!

He is a very interesting person, the kind of goofy n joker type, he never fail to fill a room with laughter..I still remember the shy look he had when i accidentally saw his card to pledge to remain virgin n pure for marriage...And also fill with dreams n hope of having a simple n warm family..

Now looking at him, i wonder if that guy is still inside him somewhere...Somehow, he become a drunker, always on the fast-lane of life...I wonder if he still goes to church after going to uni...I mean, he's still the loving and fun guy...but...something have changed...and somehow i felt like it's not for the better.... hmmm...

Then i found out another ex of mine have gone to another place to study...then the time frame he left is exactly when we broke up...it rose something in me, a weird feeling...another "burning bush"...hmmm...

There's this book i 'm reading lately...somehow...all these "burning bushes" seems to be pointing to one direction...i feel the Spirit stirring inside of me...i just wish i have the wisdom to know what shall i do with all these much complicated emotion...

PS: Do keep me in prayer please...