Tuesday, November 23, 2010

::Interesting::

Life has been full of unexpected little surprises, jokes, and blessings for the past few days :)

Firstly, my laptop got a new name! Whee~ it's called alegria, it means joy in spanish, cuz there's just so much joy in my life recently, and also i really wanna learn my spanish properly, who knows, it might come to use one day.

Last Sunday was chaos at Hope Tots, a few kids were crying and screaming so insanely loud that they drown out the music during praise and worship, and poor Kah Ong need to scream at the top of his lung during Bible story time. But, the worst of all is poor poor Anne, TWO kids puke on her!! TWO!!

I tried using guitar during worship time for the very first time in Hope Tots, the kids were fascinated b the guitar but they couldn't really hear it properly cuz the crying voices are just too mighty for my poor old guitar.

During worship, i said : "ok kids, now let's sing the song Jesus loves me", one boy actually look up to me earnestly :"chicken?" ...understandably, the adults in the room start to burst out in pure joy...hahaha..i look at him :"no dear, not chicken, it's Jesus"...haha...kids...they are the best :)

At night after having dinner with Kok Siong and Gerard at can2, it suddenly pour down madly. It's like all the women in heaven decided to cry together...or something like that.

In the end, i was soaked and my feet were "dipped" in mud water, yet somehow, i feel strangely satisfied and happy and thankful.

I remembered the days when i was still in primary school, my mum will walk me to and fro the school every single day. And when it rains, she will bring raincoat and slippers for me and we'll brave the shallow flood together.

I remembered the feeling of the mud water rushing through my tiny toes. there's one time that it rain so heavily that we can't even cross the pool of water, it's so fortunate that we manage to meet this lady that offer us a ride.

Last Sunday night felt like that time.

I feel happy waiting for the shuttle bus that seems to take forever to come, because somehow i feel so alive. Somehow knowing that rains and muds are still real in my world, knowing that i am not living in a shell made of steel, knowing that nature is still alive...all these feelings coming together, just make me feel thankful.

Today we had Short Term Missions team meeting.Extremely thankful that somehow God has made the impossible possible, it has been month of uncertainty, one moment i can go then the next cannot, then can, then cannot...it has been months of really saying there's pnly so much i can do and the rest is totally up to God's will...Very thankful for the time as well, we are definitely very different, but that's gonna make it all the more exciting! :)

Thankful that my bank account has more money than i thought, therefore i am able to fund the trip on my own. Thankful for my dear Wildboar that lend me the money, thankful for my dear shepherd who silently help me pay off the rest.

Thankful that i found $1 under the table just now while cleaning up :)
Thankful for the unknown person who left his/her ju hua cha behind, it was put to good used in blessing another person :)

May my week continue to be such as the rest of my week will be loaded with stuff.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

::Blog::

Today i've been reading blogs...now that i have my own laptop ( with a million shoutouts of thanks to "papa"), it will be easier to "stalk" people. with lotsa loves of course.haha

i realised blogging this kinda thing can easily go both ways- helpful or harmful.

i feel a bit sad that i can only hear people's true thoughts through a screen.
i feel sad that perhaps this is because i haven't been caring enough.
i feel sad that so many people are seemingly living a mask.

On another notes, today is really an amazingly blessed days, in so many ways.

i'm thankful for so many people in my life that cross my path today. ( you know who you are :))
i'm thankful for this new laptop.

i'm extremely thankful to God.
and i feel like the quote in my blog is so true in so many ways- we are only strong if we stood even in the storm, we are only giving if we gave even when it hurts.

yah, it's a bitter-sweet day. But it's worth it

Friday, October 29, 2010

::Building::

Went to textile centre for District Meet this tuesday night...

very thankful for the time.

As i am standing there during Praise and Worship, once again was very touched by the significant of this place. Every inch of this building is built by sacrifices of people in my family.

The last amazement comes when i finally see the most special and awesome and amazing thing about this building.

It's covered by the Blood of the Lamb. Every last inch of it...

Waoh, personally, i think that's powerful, and that's what gonna move this church.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

::Marriage::

Another of my friend just got married, it's so unfortunate that once again i wasn't able to attend a wedding..

Scrolling through the photos in facebook.

Getting married suddenly feels quite scary,i look at their happy faces and think to myself: waoh this is it then? one person that you'll gonna see every single day for the rest of 50 years. Waoh that's scary.

now this is really faith..

...........................still scary..lolx

Saturday, October 23, 2010

::Old::

Nat brought my stuff over just now..i love looking at my photo albums..reminded by my old days..

i love reminiscing the past! LOL (sign of getting old)

and manage to dig up my old blog as well! i was really stupid back then...
anyway, if you are interested of who is Seow Yen Nie before she received Christ, i now give you the permission to look at my old blog..

cassieseow.blog.friendster.com

i can't stop you from judging my old self, but hopefully some will see that i am indeed changed, as i am convinced that i am..

:)

Sunday, October 17, 2010

::Friends::

Church friends fall into a weird category in my life. i dont' particularly like them, don't particularly hate them...with most of them i have nothing in common...yet i can't imagine my life without them..

friends..i have had more than a couple of them in the brief 21 years of my life..i hang out with people i liked..people who liked me..and people who think alike as me [there's less than less people that falls into this category]...some of them grew apart, i kinda expected i will never see them again for the rest of my life..some of them are so far away, try as i may to maintain the friendship, i still fear that one day they will become one of the statistic for the previous category...

but.. people in church...

we kinda just suddenly become friends the moment we step through the door of heaven.
no "exploration" stage, no "settling down" stage...

it's not that i don't like them, i like them for who they are..but..it's not like other friends that i like them for what they do or don't do.

i kinda expect that even if we grew apart, i will see these friends from church for the rest of my life and until eternity...never see their face ever again? that thought seldom cross my mind...and on the few rare occassions that it did, it's definately not because we have "grew apart".

people come..people leave...
church is such a place...

people come..people stay...
heaven is such a place...

i pray innocently and over-positively that none will leave from now on, i want to selfishly see them for the rest of my life and eternity....i am young and excusable for such thoughts still...i dunno if i can still be so innocent 30 years down the road...

there's this saying that if you think you are standing strong today, be even more aware that you don't fall tomorrow.

i still believe that i don't fall into this category..

i believe that no matter what bad things crash me hard in life, i will hold on to Jesus regardless.

how can you leave? how can you turn away when you have tasted Heaven? I cannot.
To deny after you have tasted Heaven, life itself will look like Hell.

30 years down the road, i want to be a naggy mum, a noisy aunt, a devoted child of God.

Sunday, October 3, 2010

::Clumsy::

those who know me well knows that i am a CLUMSY person..here's some of my records:
  1. broke a glass in KBox cuz i jump around while singing and my hand just dunno how swept across the table and the glass shattered. I put the glass cup back on the table and pretend nth happened and walk out of KBox. Sorry KBox.
  2. i was touching the christmas deco in one of those very expensive branded apperal shop, onw of the christmas ball dropped and roll across the floor with the salesgirl staring at me.
  3. i always dripped sauce on my shirt. Gerard can testify to this, he once counted how many times i dropped food onto myself while eating.
  4. i tried a ring in a shop before and the whole top part broke when i try to take the ring out.
  5. i lost a tshirt in the washing machine, yah i dunno what happened.
  6. etc. etc. etc.

The point is, i m so clumsy!

today i paid the consequence, literally.

i walked into a gift shop, Precious Thought; touched one of the small box; it dropped; roll across the floor; i paid

:(

one week of allowance gone.

why am i me?