::Friends::

Church friends fall into a weird category in my life. i dont' particularly like them, don't particularly hate them...with most of them i have nothing in common...yet i can't imagine my life without them..

friends..i have had more than a couple of them in the brief 21 years of my life..i hang out with people i liked..people who liked me..and people who think alike as me [there's less than less people that falls into this category]...some of them grew apart, i kinda expected i will never see them again for the rest of my life..some of them are so far away, try as i may to maintain the friendship, i still fear that one day they will become one of the statistic for the previous category...

but.. people in church...

we kinda just suddenly become friends the moment we step through the door of heaven.
no "exploration" stage, no "settling down" stage...

it's not that i don't like them, i like them for who they are..but..it's not like other friends that i like them for what they do or don't do.

i kinda expect that even if we grew apart, i will see these friends from church for the rest of my life and until eternity...never see their face ever again? that thought seldom cross my mind...and on the few rare occassions that it did, it's definately not because we have "grew apart".

people come..people leave...
church is such a place...

people come..people stay...
heaven is such a place...

i pray innocently and over-positively that none will leave from now on, i want to selfishly see them for the rest of my life and eternity....i am young and excusable for such thoughts still...i dunno if i can still be so innocent 30 years down the road...

there's this saying that if you think you are standing strong today, be even more aware that you don't fall tomorrow.

i still believe that i don't fall into this category..

i believe that no matter what bad things crash me hard in life, i will hold on to Jesus regardless.

how can you leave? how can you turn away when you have tasted Heaven? I cannot.
To deny after you have tasted Heaven, life itself will look like Hell.

30 years down the road, i want to be a naggy mum, a noisy aunt, a devoted child of God.