Monday, August 29, 2011

::Intervene::

I started the day with a new understanding for the word "priesthood", and its high relevance to the word "intercede".

I ended the day with a new understanding for the word "intercede", and its high relevance to the word "intervene".

What a liberating Truth i learn today. Prayer is not pettily wishing for something to happen, it is the claiming and proclamation of the victory we already have in Christ.

I shall proclaim that FYP will be finished victoriously!

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

::Blooms::


又到了花开的季节,这是我在南大的第四个花季。要说它是花季其实也不然,但,当那小小朵的白花随风飘下,心中又是充满了那么多的感动。

第四个花季,也代表了这是我在主怀抱的第四年。

当初,我不是为了接受耶稣才来到南大的。但,现在回头看,我真不敢想像,如果没有主,现在的我会是个什么样子。

在我生日的那天,高高兴兴地和燕羽在市区逛了逛,吃了一直超想吃的雪糕,拍了大头贴,也聊了好久好久。


除了满满的感恩,也还是满满的感恩。

在过去的三年里,第一次深深的体会到生命竟然可以如此地丰盛,快乐,奇妙。心,就是活在这种欢愉里。

当然,也有过那么多无眠的夜晚,当全世界仿佛都停止的时候,在那黑夜里独自默默掉的泪,只有主看到,也只有主能擦掉。

赞美之泉的付出的爱充分的表达了我内心的感恩。


每当我想起你宝贵十架
为了我的过犯你受刑罚
为了我得医治你受鞭伤
为了我得救赎付上代价

每当我想起你牺牲的爱
我要高举双手献上敬拜
我的心要不停献上感谢
主耶稣你为我做的一切

尊贵羔羊
配得我赞美
荣耀君王
配得我尊崇
再次献上赞美祭
我灵向你歌唱
感谢主你为我付出的爱

" 在 你 的 院 宇 住 一 日 , 胜 似 在 别 处 住 千 日 ; 宁 可 在 我   神 殿 中 看 门 , 不 愿 住 在 恶 人 的 帐 棚 里 。"-

詩 篇 84:10



Saturday, August 20, 2011

::Foreign::

The topic of the influx of foreigners in Singapore is heating up again. While i doubt it will go down anytime soon, hearing what other people have to say hurts my heart a lot.

I am not a political student, i did not study public policy. But one thing i know, God created all men in His image and love them equally.

Take away all other considerations, i truly believe that all men should be treated with respect, regardless of whether they deserve it or not. You see, that is exactly why it's called Grace- because we never really did deserve it in the first place.

I feel sad, helpless, and muted, when i look at the loud voices out there that are saying all sorts of thing about the "other" group of people. Indonesian, Indian, Malaysian, Chinese blah blah blah.

Discussion goes on and on about whether "they" should be allowed to come blah blah blah. How about "them" then? Does anyone even want to know what "they" think?

A lot of time, i feel like being a foreigner here is a tiring thing, like being dragged to the slave market and waiting for people to shout out how much i worth without the chance of saying anything. And if i do say anything (like what i am doing now), whether people will even listen to it, much less respect it.

Sometimes (not all the time), i feel conscious walking on the street, there is this desire to blend in; there is this mute button to my mouth when i hear people talking about "foreigners", because i am guilty as charged.

Sometimes, i feel sorry for the indian man that got his bag checked at the mrt station while the rest of us walk by with equally big (if not, bigger) bags.

When the talks go on about how unfairly locals have been treated, my heart goes out for those who are sincerely trying their best to make Singapore their home and work hard with their own hands, and even those who don't seem to be "qualified to be empathized".

It is hard, leaving home and going to a foreign place where you are not welcomed to call it home. There are really some of us out there who loves our native lands a lot and at the same time are trying our best to just fit in.

Before I hear another word about fairness, equality, justice and all those big argument, i simply wish that people can start treating each other through the perspective that we are all just human. From dust we come, and to dust we will return one day. Can't we love before we judge?

Before fingers start pointing, i want to remember, the sinner that has received undeserving grace is me first and foremost.

If this post ever get noticed by more than 10 people, it will probably be hammered and shred to pieces. But i just have to say, i am not that proficient in responding to long posts.

Monday, August 8, 2011

::Crazy::

This must be crazy.

Now that i come to think of it, it's all crazy. Yet, i have this contradicting feeling inside of me that i am going to die but not.

Taking 2 part time jobs, having 1 and potentially another tuition job, paying more than what i have for rental each month, taking 5 modules this semester, doing FYP without knowing what i'm doing, taking on greater ownership in children ministry, taking care of more people in my life group, trying to be a helpful senior to the freshies, keeping in touch with my family, wanting to care for my malaysia friends more, learning guitar, doing housework, taking care of my sheep, planning meetings, being in deco ministry, wanting to spend time with my yr4 buddies, bible study, listening, talking, counselling, sharing, cleaning, cooking, washing... ...

To add to it, i am blogging now.

It's the first day of school, and i am starting to feel tired. This is all crazy, and the unknown adventures i will go through in my final year are going to be crazy as well.

Just to mentioned one that's particularly intriguing, a grandma hold my hands and walked me across the road last Saturday. Perhaps i looked too fragile, perhaps God asked her too, anyway i felt super loved <3

With that said, i think i am going to be all right if i do it with God, because He is more than able and forever faithful.

Ps: somehow ppl have the impression that i lay back and do nothing about my life, well, just wanna say that's not true, i believe in doing the best i can humanly, while knowing that life itself is not for me to control. For ppl that have known me and wonder why i said what i said, hope this clarifies. :) [i shall add a smiley face here just in case you thought i said that with much bitterness.haha]