::Reflection::

timzimin shared his story with God to us last night...[he talk until we all have to take cab to go home...]...but the point is, i'm very glad and thankful to be one of the people sitting there last night to hear all the blessings God has showered upon him in his life so far, i'm very sure there's tons of wonderful small stories that he didn't manage to tell us, and there will surely be more amazing stories to be added to all that in years and days to come....

i've been reflecting about my personal story with God also since this Valentine's Day... and i'm just amazed by God's brilliance..hahaha...and really very thankful also...without Him, i don't know where would i be now, and i wouldn't want to go there, whereever that maybe, for it will be a place without Him.

For these past few days, i've been quite anxious, i feel like so distracted by other stuff that i can't really focus when doing my quiet time, or when i was praying, or even just singing worship.. then i started to feel scared...What if i'm starting to lose it, What if i drift further and further away from God?

But last night, when i was praying during worship, i felt assured in my heart once more that He is here, He had always been here, and He will be here till the end of time and beyond that. I told Him i'm so scared....But peace flooded my heart after that as I know that this is a time for pruning, for being sure of my faith, and to stand firm...despite eveything....He just want me to stand still and to be firm because He Is Here. And i'm thankful also for Wilson for speaking out what is in my heart after that.

1 Corinthians 15:58

58Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord.

King James Version-the cheem[?] one

58Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.

New International Version-the normal one

::Language::

Language is---Communication of thoughts and feelings through a system of arbitrary signals, such as voice sounds, gestures, or written symbols. (http://www.thefreedictionary.com/language)

And here's my language

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Acts of Service
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Acts of Service:		10
Quality Time:		9
Words of Affirmation:		6
Physical Touch:		3
Receiving Gifts:		2

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

By the way, just wanna shououtz a thanks for the book-- Love as a way of life, it's reli a good book...thx much ^^

::Love::

It is the time of the year when LOVE is the only word you hear everywhere you go..actually, there's something called selective hearing, it simply means that we tend to focus more on hearing what we want to hear [or rather, dun wanna hear, like gossip and such.].so...maybe..[just maybe]...Love is not the only word you will hear after all...

lately, i sense more peace in my heart, even when i rush thru all my projects and the "to-do-list". And there's only one explanation for it--my Big Daddy's Love ^^

prior to this, i have been experiencing some negative emotions, a lot of them caused by how people perceived me, i'm quite sensitive to what people are saying and also their non-verbal communication, which turns out to be not so good after all.

but what amazed me when i tried to seeks comfort in God's arms is that, He scolded me! And for wo consecutive days somemore! He scolded me with such tender and care that i can do nothing but just compelled to bow down before Him who searches all hearts. He told me that i've been focusing too much on myself instead of the One True Love that comes form Him. Eva, it's time to rethink the definitin of Love, cuz you don't knw much bout it after all...

So now, by His grace, i live, and using my life, i shall explore what is means to LOVE.

And seeing that Valentine's is just around the corner, i'm planning a small party for my caregroup, i found it such a blessing to be able to do cards for them, see the smiles on their faces, and hear them laugh-out-loud when i sang =p

Another "profound experience" occurred to me also lately, my ex, julian, who has been out of contact for 5 months, suddenly contacted me again since friday night. i felt so awkward and afraid, but after that i recognize the source of my fear, i fear that i might succumb when he suggested we get back together. I can see that it's not a healthy relationship, but, it's a very comfortable and tempting relationship, one filled with sweet-talks and fluffy rainbows and flowers [just the kinda stuff any normal will fall for]. but i thank God for the wisdom in recognizing this, or else, i'll be stucked in another cycle of "curtains of comfort" which is not good again, like i have fall for so so many times in the past..